assalamualaikum and ni hao maa. hee.

shira actually ada pergi program 1-citizen , then kitorang kena submit portfolio masing-masing. kira macam kerja kursus laa kot. kot laa .benda ni boleh buat individual atau grouping. but shira pilih individual sebab tension ah semua benda nak buat grouping. serabut alam kepala nak ingat group mana. ada yang buat poster , ada yang buat video , ada yang hantar gambar. but shira yang malas tahap terkata tahap mana , buat essay. grammar memang tak payah cerita . tunggang langgang habis. and my story is not quite good like others people. but , atleast i try right? good girl lah shiraooww. so guys , here we goes 

-I know it was my fault-

Today was a sunny day. I am feels so exhausted and seriously tired. Walking alone in this empty street make me feel likes there was nobody who lives in this earth anymore. No one wants to accompany me. As usual, I am not exists in the school because I was a nerdy girl, who always lives in my own world. I not even closed with my classmates. After walked about 2 km from library, I do not think that I have any energy to continue my study at home. With an empty heart and laziness possessed my body, I continue my journey .My only destination is home sweet home. So, I just walk, walk and walk by myself.

After went for a shower, I feels like something is calling me. It has been a long time since I have not opened my Facebook account. It makes me attracted to know what happen in virtual life. For me, people in a social network is more friendly than in a reality life. Everyone has a privileges to decide what is true or not, posting what they want also find a person who lost contact with us. I have to move on. I do not want to be alone this world, forever.

“I’m feels so lonely here. Who wants to be my friends? Just leave me some messages, I will reply”.

Five minutes later, there were so many persons like my status. I get many friends and what most important is I get attracted to someone , Jack. From his profile picture, he was a good-looking man. He has a shiny blue eyes and a curly hair. Day by day, time flies away and I get close with him. We share about many things. I am feels so comfortable with him. Jack was caring person, he always care about me whether I in a good condition or not, whether I already eat or not. Even though we never meet before, but I feels like I already know him for a long time. So, I make a decision to ask him out.

Saturday morning. I am waiting for him at Sri Garden Park. We decided to meet there before proceeds on our plan such as watching movies together. I had a butterfly in my stomach. This is my first time , I have never feels like this. I am curious what he will be, what he will looks when we confront each other. 30 minutes passed and I did not even saw him. I sent him message. He replied that he would be late. Okay, I decide to wait for him for a while.

 A few minutes later, an old man come closed to me. His appearances make me feels weird and curious. Then, he introduced himself that he was Jack. Oh my god! Are u kidding? It was totally different with what I saw in Facebook. I feel likes want to faint but I tried to act cool. I told him that he was wrong. I am not the one that he searched. I make-up my mind, and went home. I know it was my fault. Believe at someone that I do not even know. I wished that I can turn times back. I already waste a lot of my time having a conversation with him until my studies interrupted. The moral stories of my story, I hope others people will not do the same mistakes likes I have done.